The final moment that heart wrenching moment between Sam and Dean. Can we re-wind and toss this in the air. Last night after re-watching a thought struck me. My thought reverted back to the start of the trials when Sam said to Dean this is a suicide mission. It wasn’t until Dean came bolting through the chapel doors to stop Sam proceeding with the last section of the third trial, that the words came back into my mind.
It wasn’t until Dean said ‘if you finish the trials you will die’ and Sam replied – “SO” Did Sam find out before Dean that he was actually going to die. Did he research the trial after all. Or examine information that Metatron talked to him about. Why was Sam so nonchalant as though he couldn’t care less either way. It was just how he came out with “SO”. Was this Sam’s goodbye speech to Dean? It was the way the whole dramatic performance played out, as though Sam was committing suicide and opening up to his brother and getting those inner demons off his chest once and for all. Was he preparing himself for death? Was Dean trying to talk his brother down off that ledge, with the replies that Sam so wanted to hear.
It was torture as the viewer trying to watch over this agonizing moment. Did Sam really want to end his life that badly that he thought Dean would be better if he wasn’t around. Was he content in dying that it wasn’t until Dean’s words hit him with a punch that he thought twice about it, and decided to back down. The guilt that Sam took on board was so hard for him to really bare and cope with. So had he contemplated suicide and gathered those thoughts as a final goodbye? 😦 😦 😦
Also Naomi’s speech about Sam was always the Sacrifice to a bewildered Dean, left me numb. Was this Gods plan all along, that he wanted to see Sam dead. Had he prepared those trials with this in mind. And Sam was right it was a ‘suicide mission’. Why did God want that person dead, what was in it for him?
Bella as ever really wants to know what her little angels think. Was Sam really thinking about ending it all, and was coming to terms with his guilt in a huge magnified way. Type away folks if your lurking too don’t be afraid to join in. We promise we are so friendly around here 😉