Okay with eight years to filter through is a big task, but one thing I did notice through the shows history was that Sam has spent a long time on his own without Dean. I reckon five times in total to Dean’s twice without Sam. Sam had four months on his own when Dean went to hell; six months on his own during the Mystery Spot episode, 1 year when he came back soulless. (18 months if you count the six months topside without his soul). 1 year when Dean went to Purgatory. So during this amount of time when Sam was at his most vulnerable what did we really learn about Sam during this time, was there anything in particular that made Sam appear any different than what he was when Dean was alive and by his side.
One thing I did sense that he was very aggressive, lonely, tensed up, drunk some of the time to bloke out the pain, of grief and isolation, and very regimental in the way he looked after himself and got the job done. I have always found Sam to be aggressive when tackling people like Ruby In I know what you did last summer, and Gabe in Mystery Spot among others. So when we start to analyze these moments, what do we begin to put together. Was Sam any different without Dean? Were his emotions any different and all over the place. Did we sense his decision making would be not perfect under stressful conditions. Could he think clearly, could he even hunt professionally, without his aide with him. Did he need to collect himself before acting on anything without Dean around? Or rush into situations without really thinking them through. What did we really sense was going on in Sam’s mind during this time, without Dean. We see the finale pan out, and know how Sam really feels about letting Dean down, so could Sam have acted any differently during their separations.
So Bella is really wanting to understand how Sam coped without Dean close by, to guide him, nurture him, support him, and be that father to him. Can we sense that he felt lost, alone, even abandoned and very lonely, alienated even to a degree. The condition of his mind must have been affected and then as if by magic his brother appears like nothing had ever happened. So how does a human cope in the long run with this pressure and carry on. Did Sam actually suffer from a medical condition like PTSD or grief stricken in his actions. Type away …..