I kept thinking about this line when Dean was dying and Sam was clutching Dean. It wasn’t until I’d read an article on TWFB that it dawned on me that Sonny had said it to Dean during ‘Bad Boys’. When reading this article it prompted me back to earlier seasons and thinking was, was this in fact what Dean was wanting to hear from John all those years ago. Words come back to haunt us, and I think this sentence was one of those times. It felt like I’d been spooked.
Was Dean mirroring what he wanted to here from John, relaying it back to Sam? Or that Dean really was proud of them both with out any interference from the past. Was he elated that the recent years the pair of them had spent together all come together and finally meant something to Dean that he Sam had come so far and that Sam had no doubts in the church last season. Could Sam finally have a clear conscience that even though he thought he’d let Dean down so many times, that finally his brother was supremely proud of him.
I think hearing Dean say this was a turning point and that as an audience we needed to hear it or at least hear Dean say it out loud to Sam. It felt like they were a unit, and that they were a united unit. I also think Dean had wanted to say this for some time and it never felt like the right time to say it. The possession stuff had taken over what he really wanted to say to Sam and I think their time in the chapel had preyed on Dean’s mind. I also think saying a few words can sometimes mean a great deal. He didn’t need to say very much for it to mean something huge to Sam. It was a real shame that Dean died saying it. Was Dean thinking of Sonny, or John when he relayed those words back to Sam?
How did you feel about those final words from Dean? What did it relay back to you, and what were you thinking at the time? Did Dean maybe know John was proud of him, and didn’t need to hear him say it, or it was something he may have just imagined in his own mind, until he heard Sonny say those exact same words.