Thinking back to ‘First Born’ and Dean meeting Cain I keep wondering what Dean’s thoughts were when he decided to jump in and do a deal with Cain and transfer that Mark? What was Dean really thinking when he decided to think first and ask his usual questions later sort of style. The Dean we really know. Thinking prior to this, and how Dean really got to the point where he wanted the deal that he felt so bad after allowing his brother to be possessed by an angel, and trick his brother into letting him in. Did Dean think he was poison that everyone around him gets hurt. Had this deal gone so badly wrong that Dean wanted a way out. A passage back to normality before the possession ever happened. Had he sunk so low that the recklessness of taking on the mark would cure his other pits of despair. His brothers rejection and his own toxic self loathing. What a cocktail. Had this really damaged Dean that when faced with the mark that he saw it as a way out, that in fact he wanted to try and do some good even if it meant on taking something so bad and evil that would change him long term.
What really pushed Dean over the edge and be reckless enough to take such a risk, that he was pre-warned by Cain that it does come with a terrible burden. Which we are now learning that if Dean doesn’t kill the mark will kill him. So he has to keep up the ritual of killing. So why did Dean not stop for one brief second, rewind and just wonder if this risk was worth it. Dean did deal without even thinking is my point of this story telling. Was he so blind that the adventure ahead would be paved with something so horrible that he didn’t want to be. If he had stopped to think would it have turned this story on its head and gone a different way? Is the story telling proving that Dean doesn’t think before he acts that he is so gullible and it is his very nature to just dive in and create his own problems later on. Is this the very core of Dean Winchester? If our Dean is so bright, why was he so damned stupid to take the risk, such a risk that could possibly destroy his very existence. I can’t believe how this writing makes Dean look, that its landed him in such hot, bleak mind blowing depths. How could he have been so stupid.
So my question is, if you were Dean would you have hesitated and thought about the consequences of what might happen to you if you did take the risk?