I deserve to be LOVED ….

On the message board the topic of Rowena came up once again, and made me think about this connection between her and Crowley. Virtually since she appeared on the scene I’ve been racking my brains as to wonder why is she here. and what is she underneath up to? There has to be a motive no matter how small, doesn’t there?

So after reading the rest of the threads it got me thinking about Crowley’s moment with Sam in the Church in the Season 8 finale. Sam was turning Crowley hour by hour human with the demon cure. Crowley’s true feelings were beginning to emerge that underneath that tough, hard exterior lay a gentle, soft kind man. So the more I think about it this is what Crowley has always deep down craved. His emotions told us that he wanted someone to love him. That deep down he wanted people to give him affection and not ignore him. Deep down he wanted affection from one specific person, his own mother.

Crowley told us in Season 8 that he had a fling with Naomi, I think this got to him when she blatantly tore him off a strip and put the ball back in his court. He felt wounded by her rejection and thinking she thought that of him made those wounds go even deeper into that already twisted soul of his. So the more Sam continued to make Crowley human, the more those feelings came to the surface and much more apparent to us. Know one had ever really shown him any love. He didn’t know what it was like to be LOVED…. Had Crowley even had a relationship? No one knows much about Fergus’s past if he’d had any acquaintances that lasted where any woman had shown him any affection. That speech in the church was said for a reason. It had been brewing within him for years. So are we still any the wiser as to why Rowena has turned up after all these years?

Rowena coming back into his life is what he’s desperately been seeking, all these years. His mothers love, and acceptance of him. He wants her to be proud of him, and if he doesn’t ultimately receive this, he will end her days quicker than she can say ‘Son’… And she knows this too. Which is why she is giving him what he wants.

So do you feel that Crowley has been lacking love in his life. And this is ultimately what he’s always been craving. Has he been so lonely that know one has ever really shown him what its like to be loved. What interaction with women has Crowley ever really had. Had Rowena deserting him, and more of a profound affect on him that he has been hankering after his mother all these years. Now that she is in his life, do we think its what he’s desired and been missing all these years!! Is she living up to his expectations?